Its when one digests the details and attempt to make sense of it, when one pries the sophistries to depths that language can dig no further into, when one immerses into cares of the particulars and tries to forcefully cast an order onto what leads to what, and why such a conclusion is arrived at.

Martin Luther King Jr. had once argued that "Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will." 

A sentiment easily felt from the hard, close reality of giving bible study to children from comfortable church-going christian families, to the distant but as close a reality of the causes that the world will always come to be aware about and bothered by, but never moved for.

A friend had once told me, from how things were going on recently, God seemed to want to teach him the lessons that he thought that he had already learnt in the past. To really meld the ideas he possessed into a lasting conviction...  and test the principles of what the conviction really means to him. 

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And yes. He does work in such a way. Even when you have been a Christian for long enough. Even when you have heard the theological truths, even when you know what questions will be asked, even when you have taught those theological truths - The truths will still come back to challenge you again and again. 

The moment you understand, and the moments beyond that when you understand a deeper aspect, another facet, a whole new meaning.

God is good. And I am still appreciating the fullness of what it means.