Of course, its not the first time God answers prayers. What struck me was how late the realisation of it dawned on me. The answer came gradually and He revealed it in His time and way, but the effect of how it happened and the surprising pace of how it came about was somehow lost on me. I didn't make the casual link from what actually happened to the prayer I prayed, until I it just occurred to me how real the answer actually was.

As I seized the moment that I stumbled upon the thought to give a prayer of thanksgiving, I made another realisation - How inadequate I was in really expressing and surrendering the situation into His care. Reason being that I was similarly inadequate in my expressing and praise of His grace. 

And actually, can such a scenario be any other way? When one speaks to God, as much as you can parallel the relationship to that of a teacher, authority or father - it is different. The One who founded the Earth upon the seas, the One who owns the earth and its fullness, the One who saves...  there are no underlying psychological cover-ups, barriers or secrets because there can't be. 

By that logic, speaking in tongues isn't exactly something of deep spiritual significance as compared to prayer with a sincere heart. Especially if the justification is that it makes you feel closer to God. Because...  it doesn't. We were never close to God in the first place - in our total depravity, in our human natures, we could have never been until there was the Cross. And all Christians should declare their closeness to Him by that sacrifice rather than through speaking in a tongue. Intimacy with God comes from looking at the Cross, internalising the whole hurt Christ had to go through to reconcile the relationship and reflecting on it genuinely. 

The deep ineloquence I sometimes feel when praying.... such a position of humility is always a good mix with the assurance that He understands the words of my heart.