I just can't help feeling... well. Disappointed.
And its a disappointment that does not consist of regret - afterall, I have no idea what to regret.
Its not really of much use to think about things in terms of how the system or the markers aren't the ones who are the appropirate judges of how good one is in a subject that is difficult to assess. The reality is that I have been given such a grade by markers who graded everyone else. By standards of comparison, in terms of how I competed with the rest, I was considered a C. As much as its easy to think of standards and testing measures as limiting, not considering true potential - the reality remains a reality.
And as much passion I have in philosophy - It would still be impossible to argue away the printed grade. Sematics, truth, beauty, abstractness; they all ironically do not matter now.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
Philippians 4:6-9
Thank you God.