Actually... when I look back and take things in a quantitative light, I am quite a new Christian. The memories of the exact actualities in the before and after, probaly cannot be recounted by me in purest of the emotions, but counting in mere years alone - 3 years. 3 years that I can consider myself as a believer. 3 years where I have constantly been re-challenged with new insights and revelations. 3 years that I have come to understand what repentance and grattitude and living for His glory is about, and as the cliche goes - theres still so much more to learn and appreciate.

Somehow, as mystically sounding as it may seem, its no more just about the reasons that I believe - not that Christianity cannot put up a rational defense for itself. Its not the sense that it makes which has me believing in it, although perhaps I was appealed to the rationality of things at the start. Its more than the simple logic of christinanity being a reasonable take on things. Its the reality of Christianity. That makes me live for it. Many have 'founded' (The inverted commas not for the sake of me mocking the truth of how they find it, but instead the definition and degree of it. From lets say, a study to a scrutinising to a discovery) religion and associated it to dogmas, senselessness, needed-human-gratification, illusions, evilness and whatever it may be - but in such a paradigm, the actual analysis of the spiritual dimension can be so taken for granted. The moral values are measured in indicators of implications and effects; the human being is seen in the light of his psychology, social functions and behavioural patterns; the concepts of accountability and answerableness can be taken away so easily with a shrug of agnostism and apathy. When we measure the world so much by the constructs we create, how do we expect to ever understand what constructed us in the first place?
The expectations, merits and dependences that drives humans today - we aim at them at angles only to hope at solutions and contentment.

But what was, is and will be the problem?


“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” - C.S. Lewis

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