Two emotions (let us not drone into the labelization-cum-termanological difficulities) that can be expressed out pretty independently, and while they are at it, can do so quite freely as well. But when cocktailed together, giving each other support and contridicting each others physics, the net emotion becomes a compound that has hints of its parents in the actions that follow. It could be a combination through intervals (with respect to each emotion) or even an uneasy mix of both. Viewed alone... each emotion give their personal flavour, which I will move into first..

Anger
The concept is simple, and can be easily classified into the righteous sort of anger, the unreasonable sort of anger, the ridiculous sort... and others that aren't really significant enough to occupy a classification. Basically, all extremes revolve around a dissatisfaction which might or might not be in relation towards outburst. Contributing factors, triggers and the like can roam around in this text, but I see no need to explain the obvious.
Anger might not be expressed in an explicit manner, as it could be stored up and 'leaked' in small behaviourisms whereby the guy vents it on random (he could be selective) points.

Guilt
This stems a bit from regret perhaps, but while it subsets it, guilt also carries a different connotation because of its indicator that you did wrong to a person. Perhaps that 'wrong' may not be percieved as a 'wrong' in the sense of a standard or recongised law, but just because it was not correct in the approach of one who made the victim victim. I heard about three main ways to inflict guilt onto a person: 1) Direct assult. Whereby you directly tell the person your feelings that you have been wronged or that a certain situation was not in the desired way. In terms of submissiveness required for lower victims, I personally think that it will not strike them so badly if they assume their own rigtheousness stands firm. 2) Ignorance with forgiveness. "Its alright lar. Never mind." Words that seem to linger with a fuzzy tinglish feeling that stays hard in your heart. This sort of indirect infliction can cause pretty fatal blows of guilt to the person, since he/she would be left in a void, unsure of whether to be expectant of a punishment-like event. 3) Outburst of emotions. Tears, anger, lostness - maybe not even towards you, but towards something else. Say, an object. I need not explain the feelings behind them I suppose...

In Fusion
Together, anger and guilt combine to form a back-and-forth storm that does not know where to be. Because anger takes on the image whereby it has an authority, a right; while guilt takes the backseat, whereby it has an obligation, a requirement - the combination of both allows confusion and lostness to intrude. Where there are situations when these two emotions go together in harmony, when they work nicely with synergy, (as in, they do not fight with each other in who should have a higher measure) the new emotion that is created, holds its individuality in a fear that both parents will divorce, and that he will be snatched away to be condemmed with one forever. Yet while the marriage remains on the rocks, that child will still teether along the edges, trying not to stumble as it makes its way up, to decide how to handle this crisis he posseses.

The crisis that he is angry because it exists and that he is guilty because it cannot be resolved.



"All suffering has an end, David, if only you wait long enough. Try to remeber that. Sorrow has its live just like people. Sorrow is born and lives and dies. And when it's dead and gone, someone's left behind to remember it. Exactly like people." - Sophie, I am David

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