I suppose nobody remember the old entires I did whereby I likened 'Life' to a situation or totally irrelevant (unless we speak of it being subsetted by) system. No matter anyway, this time, I'm tilting the style of those Life 'analogies' unto an aspect that life requires/expects/suggests one to do. Dependence, i.e. a reliance. I allow no restricitions of this word, and it can mean a goal, an aim, a necessity, a hunger, a thirst, a desire, an objective, an obessive need etc. Something that humans cling onto for the sake of survival. Then again, 'cling' and 'survival' may be terms much too harsh for a school of thought to agree with. Lets include those who hold onto it for the need of 'flow' then. Whatever that 'flow' points to should be understandable to those who dwell into the mystics anyway. Whatever your desired 'words' with regard to dependence may be, let us first agree that humans need to depend on something.

The above associated words to 'reliance' should give you the key ideas, and several obvious personalities of the clingers come to mind. Those with drive and passion, who seek to gain wealth, status, honour and achievement. Those filled with confusion, wanting someone or something to appease their inner conflict. Those that just want to complete this process by rushing to the end, seeing the whole point of 'life' as 'objective', justifying their purposes with the end's result. Perhaps not the direct dependence, whereby its really outwardly obvious that its a crutch. But, a dependence no doubt, as goals, objectives, wants are all but intangible crutches that give one a purpose, a direction. And thus they depend on all these. To not depend on anything is to simply not exist. Even if one has nothing to look forward to, the act of dependence can be reduced to survival of the body. When extended to the terms of the mind, when matters like destinity are concerned, the dependence one takes transforms into a more abstract dependence - one that excretes meaning or provides satisfaction. One that signals a desired emotion or a instills a joy.

Rooted to the ground
This dependence can variate in degree of strength, just consider the tree and how long the roots grow. Being rooted to something indicates a more stronger dependence. The ground is simply there by one to stand and grow, it is necessary, but not something that aids you. The ground does help as it is from the ground that the tree derives its fertilisers and summons the strength to grow, yet it is but up to the tree to see how long it wants to survive, how strong it wants to grow. When the winds and storms threaten the toppling, it would depend on how deep the roots have grown into the ground to see whether or not it will collaspe. The ground is the source of nutrients, the needed platform to grow. And one depends by rooting oneself into it.

Lean against the wall
The depencence here seems much more lazier, much more reliant. It assumes the individual to be totally incapable of standing on its own and thus needs a support. Note that the fact that one is standing already but just leaning, the dependence can be seen as a parsitie-like dependence. The wall is just used for comfort purposes, and not because leaning really is needed. Also note that the wall itself can be demolished, bringing the leaner down with it. It is not totally assured that this dependence will give one the constant ability of standing. Leaning all the time is tiring anyway, the will of one might just give up and decide to sit. On the ground.

Cling onto the rope
Of course, the scene has to first be a deep dark pit at the bottom. A lot of trust invovled here, as the rope can be cutted anytime (by the holder, say supernatural or real. the analogy here doesn't really care whether those forces exist anyway) It also depends on one's ability, (i.e. weight) and on how you look at it (as in like, don't eat so many hamburgers on the rope) it can be or can not be up to you. The deep sincerity in the strength of the rope motivates the clinger to continue clinging, perhaps even getting him to climb up this thread. He doesn't want to let go anyway. He doesn't want to fall to the ground.

Running on the generator
The picture here gets a bit far-fetched from the everyday understandable objects, but for the sake of talking about this dependence, lets imagine a machine that a guy has to run on to generate electricity for the machine to function. He continues this process and enjoys himself as the digits rolls on in the machine. Lets just say, for the fun of it, that the machine has a 'level' system and gives chants of encouragement to him when he reached a certain number. Well, actualy his ego could do that already. The guy runs on and on and on.... and he'll probaly get tired, but he depends on those digits and doesn't want to stop because he wants them to grow. He'll go faster and faster, and maybe slow down once in a while. But then he goes faster again. He doesn't want to stop, he doesn't want to touch the ground.

Listening to the music
Maybe its not literal music, maybe its something that seems like music. Its sweet, its satisfying, it should be the one. Live with it, live by it. That is how the dependence of some is structured, and although it may not mean anything or doesn't actually make sense on a more logical level, lets go forth and ignore. Hear the music, embrace its beauty, and one shall understand. This has totally no relation to the ground whatsover, (if you noticed my pattern) so to keep with the pattern anyway... ahem. Ground.

And indeed, ground. To depend on something, it must be hard, it must be solid. It must make sure that it will not give way, it must give good reason that it can be trusted. Even for those who do not wish to deal with anything, but just follow the system so that he won't collaspe. For those that believe in a theory so strongly even with all the loopholes in it that he does not want to let go of his created concepts. For those who exist for the sake of achieving more so as to sustain his existence and achieve even greater, till he ends. For those who want to follow a way that allows you a 'new' conciousness.

For all those, and more...
Realise that whilst you're doing everything, the ground is always there, supporting whatsoever your doing.


"Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash." -- Matthew 7:24-27 (NIV)

Two emotions (let us not drone into the labelization-cum-termanological difficulities) that can be expressed out pretty independently, and while they are at it, can do so quite freely as well. But when cocktailed together, giving each other support and contridicting each others physics, the net emotion becomes a compound that has hints of its parents in the actions that follow. It could be a combination through intervals (with respect to each emotion) or even an uneasy mix of both. Viewed alone... each emotion give their personal flavour, which I will move into first..

Anger
The concept is simple, and can be easily classified into the righteous sort of anger, the unreasonable sort of anger, the ridiculous sort... and others that aren't really significant enough to occupy a classification. Basically, all extremes revolve around a dissatisfaction which might or might not be in relation towards outburst. Contributing factors, triggers and the like can roam around in this text, but I see no need to explain the obvious.
Anger might not be expressed in an explicit manner, as it could be stored up and 'leaked' in small behaviourisms whereby the guy vents it on random (he could be selective) points.

Guilt
This stems a bit from regret perhaps, but while it subsets it, guilt also carries a different connotation because of its indicator that you did wrong to a person. Perhaps that 'wrong' may not be percieved as a 'wrong' in the sense of a standard or recongised law, but just because it was not correct in the approach of one who made the victim victim. I heard about three main ways to inflict guilt onto a person: 1) Direct assult. Whereby you directly tell the person your feelings that you have been wronged or that a certain situation was not in the desired way. In terms of submissiveness required for lower victims, I personally think that it will not strike them so badly if they assume their own rigtheousness stands firm. 2) Ignorance with forgiveness. "Its alright lar. Never mind." Words that seem to linger with a fuzzy tinglish feeling that stays hard in your heart. This sort of indirect infliction can cause pretty fatal blows of guilt to the person, since he/she would be left in a void, unsure of whether to be expectant of a punishment-like event. 3) Outburst of emotions. Tears, anger, lostness - maybe not even towards you, but towards something else. Say, an object. I need not explain the feelings behind them I suppose...

In Fusion
Together, anger and guilt combine to form a back-and-forth storm that does not know where to be. Because anger takes on the image whereby it has an authority, a right; while guilt takes the backseat, whereby it has an obligation, a requirement - the combination of both allows confusion and lostness to intrude. Where there are situations when these two emotions go together in harmony, when they work nicely with synergy, (as in, they do not fight with each other in who should have a higher measure) the new emotion that is created, holds its individuality in a fear that both parents will divorce, and that he will be snatched away to be condemmed with one forever. Yet while the marriage remains on the rocks, that child will still teether along the edges, trying not to stumble as it makes its way up, to decide how to handle this crisis he posseses.

The crisis that he is angry because it exists and that he is guilty because it cannot be resolved.



"All suffering has an end, David, if only you wait long enough. Try to remeber that. Sorrow has its live just like people. Sorrow is born and lives and dies. And when it's dead and gone, someone's left behind to remember it. Exactly like people." - Sophie, I am David

For those who appreciate the vast allowances language gives to one who desires to express; a majority of them also are those who ridicule the justice words and ideas give to the actuality of a matter. Say, nothing can be explained in totality, and to essay out a concept is reducing the former's weight and impact. However, in aid to producing the expressions, jargons and definations have dominated for a more apt presentation of the subject at hand. The language becomes more understandable (in the deeper sense) when the correct words are used, and thus, terms are seemingly vital towards the painting of any word portrait of this like.

Still, terms struggle with exactness quite a lot. Afterall, they are also but words, simply decorated with the exclusitivity of extra recognition. At the intital stage, terms are expected to be understood for most of the time, they form the bulk of the concept creation. (whereby the term constructs the leaves of the main tree which the portrait branches off from)

An easy example: To 'run' as in running a program. This term, is recongised as a computer jargon and can be used quite simply in any mecanichal operation of electrical equipment. But to say very simply, 'run the program' gives an extreme vageness to the process. If we understand 'run' to mean undergo an operation whereby a task is completed by the device, we must then notice which button we are pressing and how devoted that button is in fufiling the 'run'. Then we must decide when is the program actually 'running'. Here, we are presented to many scenarios like when the game menu screen is showing, when the splash screens are in progress, when the music starts, when an actual game is started etc. And even then, we might include those options as the trigger to 'run' the program, instead of considering it as just a double-click. (Of it may not even be so, ignoring the alternatives like the 'Enter' Key, used to reach the game loading ie intial decesion making time for the 'running process', the input of the password to access the game proper might even be included as a 'run'. This whole example of course faces much more struggles then the above dilemas, and reveals to some extent the weaknesses terms have.

Well, defintely the above term is not something life threatening to consider anyway, but it does serve enough purpose to show the vagueness someone portrays when using a term. Because so much background information and assumed knowledge is supported by that term, the use of it hovers over fuzziness and unclarity. Yet, terms are suppose to simplify. They are expected to give one a better grasp on the abstractness of the subject matter. We could talk about the various different implications a term can have to a person. We could talk about the various conntations a term carries in certain fields or situations. We could talk about the ways terms distract one from the actual richness of the concept because of pre-concieved ideas regarding the term that may not be true, simply because it is difficult to be understood anyway.

Lets explore a term that carries a concept behind it, say... Fate. An idea that things are fated means that one is not in control of their own destinty and it sort of is simply scripted on in a scroll. One vageness that comes into this, is say if one holds that he does not believe in fate but believes in a God who will interevne. If we were to put aside our inability to understand how the workings of his intervention takes place (as he is in charge of time, and to consider that as a factor as well pretty much destroys the whole concept of 'fate'. Or rather, confuses it.) , is that not fate as well? I guess I don't have to say more since the rest of the implications and debative points can be easily sieved out, but the main point is that it is pretty ridiculous to argue over this term called 'fate'. By the start, it is (and has been) a created concept whereby a meaning is attached onto it. By mild usage, and major expoundation, it has become a key pillar of some faiths and beliefs and a philosophy to those demanding pattern.

And yet in the end, its still but a term. A simple word contributes to an essay in order to construct it in a more simpler fashion, but still lives on with the weakness of 'words' in that they remain that unclear.

Terms are perhaps useful to essay, and give quick, practical illlustrative power to the piece. But in terms of meaning, we need more that to gauge and percieve.


"It is very sad to try to reach an objective using the wrong means. All the effort and time would be totally wasted." -- Bible Teacher, Primary 3 class

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