when I look at a silent perspective --->

Here, I take a look at the solar system, the the stuff beyond that. The entire galaxy, this keystone of astronomy, its sometimes, a big picture how life is run. I think it is best to speak of these by its componeants... (NOTE: I have not much knowledge on the subject of Astronomy, I apologise for my assumptions or ignorance. If I am privillaged to gain more understanding on the topic, I might return to adjust or add to my points)

Basically, the picture of the solar system is this one great movie which depicts several enities revolving around a single enity, each following their individual path and cycle. Each enity, or as christened by astronomers, 'planet', has its own qualities and attributes. Each of them could be representive of human identies or paths that man travel on.

The Sun
All planets revovle around it. It acts as something that the planets want to reach or want to appreciate, but its interesting to note that the planets never travel to the sun. They revovle. This revolution could be considered a sort of worship... it holds a essence of longing. It potrays this image of wanting something very much and yet not being able to get it, therefore only being able to study it from afar. The distance each planet is from the sun shows how much they desire that thing and want to be close to it. Yet, what does the sun itself show? The sun, in my very unprofessional perception, is really a big ball of fire. In my younger days, when I heard of the concept of hell, I had thought that it could possibly be on two areas - the sun or the centre of the earth(will touch on later), so the sun could represent something that man is ignorantly seeking. -- Hell. And this is true in a way, as man are disobdient towards God. The sun, therefore, appears a innocent beauty, but could be much more menancing than the percieved. However, any primary school kid knows the importance of the sun in life, (Say Photosynthesis) so go ask one. Then the sun would appear to be something of importance, of necessity to man. Either way, the sun is representive of life in the sense that all man do seek something in life, yet, they sometimes are in this limbo of being only capable of appreciation.

The Planets... (now my ignorance will really show. )
Take rotation of a planet to be a change in a perspective and a revolution to be a new stage in life. Take a satellite to be considered a seperate perception that looms around the in-depth scripting. My words will be swaying from a symbolical to scientifc descriptions.

Mercury
Mercury rotates three times in two of its years, slow maturity and its not that constant with its experiences. It sticks itself very closely to the sun and has no known satellites. This is vaugely a picture of simple-mindedness.

Venus
Women come from this place huh? I know its the brightest planet in the sky, holding competition only to the sun and moon. It rotates extremely slowly, and has this strange effect of presenting the same face to earth when both planets are at their closest. It is also much hotter than mercury although its futher away from the sun (due to some sort of greenhouse effect). The place faces strong, but slow, winds. It has no magnetic force either. And one of the weridest things is that it rotates anti-clockwise around the sun, unlike the other planets. (Denying big bang theory too) Well... I think I can guess why they say women come from here.

Earth
Familar with this? I think earth can be percieved in two lights. 1) Mother Nature, beauty, creation and love. or 2) The WORLD. (Everyone hates it, man should know. He did it to himself) Earth is praised with one moon, I like to think of this moon as the other side of the coin. I wouldn't consider myself a relativist, but those two major sides of perceptions can be seen as the extreme view to the far end and the moderate view to the shallow end. Earth can also be looked on as a planet of constants. Afterall, earth was made by God to house man, it had the perfect conditions. Earth also has a centre core that holds a raging ball of fire, if we bring in the same concept of the sun, this sort of shows that an essence of wrongdoing is already present in the Earth.

Mars
The supposed home of man. And martians too i guess. Its known as the God of War, and the relation is probaly because of its redness. (= blood) I know vaguely that there might be water on it, this might draw a picture of hesistantance in terms of its willingness to mount the battlefield. It is attributive of having ice caps on the north and south hemispheres as well, showing a probable result of coldness, a lost of senstivity, in boundless existance. Perhaps at certain situations allowed by the system. (note polar caps are in existant on Earth as well) Mars has 2 moons, I know nuts about them, but symbolically, how about a side of compassion versus a side of vengence? Therefore; mars is a picture of a competitive warrior that is loyal, brave and somewhat courageous.

Jupiter
Um... its the biggest planet, to the extent that all planets can fit into it nicely. A probable show of an ability to acknowledge everything, a capcity of taking in every thought. Yet, its self-identity might face a crisis at times because of such overload. Its a gas planet, but probaly has a core, a show of fuzzy capacities perhaps. It has a good magnetic field as well, potraying its want to absorb new insights. Its ablity to intake several perceptions is futher confirmed by its many moons and it probaly also has the skill to classify these perceptions - its 3 rings.

Saturn
*Thinking* Perhaps.... I could call this a scientifc persona. Like jupiter, it seeks for the many views by its size. I know that its internally hot, showing strong biasness to certain points perhaps. Possesing this sort of attribute would depend on the individual's thoughts and personal absolutes before a tabulative acknowledgement can be gathered. One very prominent thing of saturn is its visble rings. It has plenty, showing its power of classification. But the difference of it from jupiter is that the visible presence of the rings (i.e. amount of classification) overpower the passion for more perpectives.

Uranus
Sadly, I dont' think I know much about this guy. (-- will try to update when gain information)

Neptune
This is probaly the creative one. A simple reason is as that it has an orbit not in accordance to newton's laws, as pluto's orbit is not that uniform, neptune is sometimes made to be the last planet, which is kinda true for a guy that's creative. It has the fastest winds over it, showing its great want for haste. It also has an internal heat source, signifying passion and faint rings, hinting the skills of saturn. It also can be looked at in the nightsky with a binoculars, this shows that creativity can be attained by any fool. It has several moons as well.

Pluto
Its smaller than the moons, and seemingly at the far end of darkness. Yeah, the dark side person. When one enters a session of self-denial or bathes in a sea of depression, he probaly goes to visit pluto for awhile. It has one moon (known), but its almost the same size as pluto, theres more than one way to feel hate anyway.

Other runners of the system... (I still am nuts about this stuff)

Comets, Meteriods, Asteriods
No, I dunno the difference between these three. But, soaring stuff in the skies? There's been so many movies on some big thing hitting the earth and causing a wipeout of the human race and putting earth out of orbit and stuff as such, I guess I could say these guys signify the fears of the fellow personas.

Stars
Like the sun, these guys could be temptation pads.

The end.

I don't really know how to sum up this with a sutiable conclusion, mixing analogy with structured scientifical discoveries can be kinda crazy sometimes.

RPGs are Role-Playing Games. The ones that I refer to are the old-school kind type, I'm sure many RPG veterans that have took enough pains to play those games (or had existed in that era) would realise what I mean. The modern RPG has now been heavily distored, mainly because of the increasing popularity of MMORPGs. These online critters have taken a totally new twist to Role-Playing Games and are still on the rise without fail; it depends really, on personal opinion whether MMORPGs are good. But I have to clarify that RPGs and MMORPGs hold extreme differences and very borderline similarites.

But back on topic, I would like to do some simple elaboration to RPGs. From my early youth up till now, I was an avid RPG player. My RPG history goes as such: I started off as a Dragon Warrior Fan. Dragon warrior was actually not very great, but it did introduce me to the world of RPGs. I was more or less hooked, deciding that this would be my favourite genre from the time to come. I did more or less the whole series, then stumbled upon Dragon Warrior Monsters. It became my favourite game for awhile as I loved the concept it carried. I went on to play Link's Awakening, then the Pokemon series (which I laughed at). Then I played Dragon Warrior Monsters II and replayed the Remake of Dragon Warrior III. After that, I was fortunate to stumble onto the classics: Final Fantasy 6 and Chrono Trigger. RPGing was practically my second life after that, I played Illusion of Gaia, Robotrek, Mario RPG, A Link to the Past, Tales of Phantasia, The Shinning Force Series, LiveaLive, Megaman Battlenetwork I and II, Golden Sun etc. etc. etc. etc. I had even started dealing with creating my own RPGs, concepts were in my head and storylines to accompany the gist were thought about. I used RPG maker 2000 and had gandered experienced by creating an RPG: The quest for the Orbs. It had a normal plot but somewhat deep characters with symbolism scattered around a bit. My computer had to be formatted after sometime, so that game was lost. I had also tried working with RPG maker 2003 and played games created by fellow RPG makers. I enjoyed A Blurred Line, The Way series, Bob's Big Adventure, The Book of Three etc. etc. etc.

Ah... nostalgia. In every RPG I had played, I always tried looking deeper into the plot, to see underlying meanings behind the actions. Some stories like Final Fantasy 6's simply blew me away. It gave me the usual feeling of mixed statisfaction, joy and silent sadness while being in total awe. I believe only RPG players can experience this.

A RPG is like an interactive movie that is told in a novel fashion. Thats really lots of stuff to enjoy in it, the most outstanding feature it shows is the storyline. Really, the stories are sometimes really very enjoyable. Better than televison material. Then there's the characters. There's enough time in an RPG to involve every character and to tell his background and story, and show his personality. In true blue old school RPGs, the graphics aren't exactly very good to be showing emotions and thats when they have to express it... by words. The literature is sometimes awesome in the RPGs, and the concepts they bring out, sometimes devising their own science, sometimes creating a new universe.... its good.

The game is also enjoyed with music, instrumental, without vocal interruptions. Love mozart? Try Chrono Trigger's sound track. Then again, although the graphics might not be that good, it can still be enjoyed. The special effects and battle animations add to the story's effects.

All in all, RPGs 'rawk'. Playing RPGs were what my childhood was about and even today, I still am playing RPGs. Perhaps not so often as before, but I believe its because all the 'good' ones are gone.

Until I get my hands on another great RPG, I'll be comforting myself of this RPG concerto by my sweet memories of playing.

Seriously... the greatness of an RPG can only be shown when you play one.
They can be rather deep if you really go into it...

Meaningful sayings in life. Little lessons that are taken for granted very easily.

I am now starting to feel for one of these great sayings... a little. I feel stupid for feeling so but I don't think I need to be blamed. I know why.

My upbringing at home has seen that I must be either looking at the very practical or rational side of things, or be looking at the totally abstract image of it. At my various institues that I partook the packaged education, I could mix around fairly well with anyone, having a somewhat healthy but faint social circle. But the clique I went into had to be one that discriminated 'lameness', that were people that basked in total practicality. Ones that had somewhat killed their senstivity, that had lightened the weightage of emotionas by considering the norm as exaggerations. Yeah... Peer pressure.

Yet now... I must admit that I finally am touched by this single saying. This confession really dennies me; its neither abstract nor practical. Yet, I don't want to place it in Implorations as its not a just a spectacle I put on. Heck no, it now finally touches my inner being. The deep scripting that dwells in me.

The saying, let me paraphrase it by the words of my discipline master: 'Actually, if you take a closer look at life, you will realise that it is actually the small things that matter in it. The small things that show who you are. And it is those small things, that create the biggest impact and impression that you can leave in your life.'

Indeed.

But the only thing that contridicts this saying.... is Richard Carlson's series of 'Don't sweat the small stuff'. Somewhat... disputive. But anyway, the point is in place.

I have realised... life has been always made up of these small things. Big events are remembered by small things. Vicotries are recalled through small things. Deeds of kindness are always appreciated, by first remebering the small things. Small things matter. A lot.

And by comparing the significance of the small things, and the value it luminates....
I can appreciate its beauty.

"In the country of the blind, the man with one eye is king."

Seeing things. Visions, are very important. Be it, the literal sense of sight, or the prophetic allegories from dreams and stuff, someone who 'sees' is considered a very important person. Almost everyone values thier sense of sight as the most vital sense they have. A gift of telling the future is immediately labeled a prized possesion, with everyone wanting it. Everyone wants to know what the future holds anyway, don't they?

Therefore, seeing is directly linked to knowing. Thrall says, "Seeing is believing", and I believe this mentality holds true for the many beings residing on planet earth. That was how the major topics of research came about, from curiousity, from a desire to see. Thats right, almost every subject mankind has went into. From the greats like history and science to the regular talk-of-the-town gossips. Even stuff like enlightenment, getting a divide attribute or thinking out of the box, they all contain the essence of seeing.

Indeed, this want for seeing is great. Man had said ignorance to be bliss, but that was only after they had seen. Before that, they had the desire to see, and therefore had wanted to see in that first place. Take the tale of Adam and Eve. So, in wanting to see, is there a consequence? I don't suppose a consequence applys in every case, but in a way, it does. We would have the consequence of being robbed of our previous innocence.
But innocence... is it really that valuable? I had watched a part of the show 'Agnes of God' and to see Agnes suffer becuase of her innocence, it does show we a different part of what innocence reveals. Yeah, afterall, a reason why we want to see is to be sercure. For the sense of sercurtiy. And to be sercure, one had better not be innocent. (Well, you must be for law and justice... but not for the plot of the world)

In the aspect of Christianity, seeing does play quite a role as well. Besides knowledge of the scripture, there's the many propheies that involve the end of days, the rapture and stuff as such. I know that there are christians that are mainly interested in these stuff and its this knowledge of propheies that spur on to become better christians.

But prophets... these guys are sometimes not what they mean. Most prophets go by the way of symbolism, interpretation of meaings by dreams, visions and things they see. Taking the prophet in Troy for example. A major reason why Troy had fall was him and his prohesies. The king had even believed him and not his sons, leading to two major mistakes. The first mistake of going to attack the greeks after their defeat had even lead to the death of Hector. And heard the great irony by this conversation: (paraphrased)

Hector: (Goes to his father the king and hugs him)
King: (Hugs him back, when he turns to leave...) Hector.....
Hector: (looks back)
King: You are the best son a father can ever have. May the Gods guide you.

When you are able to see, respect is immediately shone onto you. You gain trust from everyone and partake a special glory. As the seer has the solutions, the seer has the answers, the seer has that thing that everyone else does not posses. The seer...

He knows.

Okay.

So I spent the whole of yesterday morning and a bit of the afternoon to try fix up a series of devices on my computer and get them working through the computer. Only after the CD player was connected to the audio converter, it ran out of battery and even upon plugging it with the charger, it doesn't show signs of working. Fine, so one item down. I went to borrow my mom's one and realised it was too, conviently spoiled. So I continued my work and did my best in the connections and dealings (through other means). Throughout the whole process, my computer was extremely laggy, my speakers were dying on me and my USB hub was burning. I left the com to cool down and went for lunch.

Upon return, I did some other stuff and finally went back to my com, figuring that at this time of the year, it was sick once again. The common flu, yeah? So after a futlie try at the devices, I decied to forsake the idea of a while. So I tried the internet. It was down. I tried signing in msn. I couldn't. And then, there goes the whole of my evening and night with me prancing over every solution, hardware or software; checking my firewalls, adding rules to my network settings, playing around with the pc ports, having fun with my modem, etcetera.

I restarted the computer over forty times I think. In any case, I seemed to be coughing a little badly at that time and decided nothing about it. My night was already wasted anyway, so I just offed the machine and went to slumber.

I awoke to find myself sick. Terrbily. Flu, running nose, sore throat. Parched. And I decided to test that machine again. Since, I am here doing a usual blog entry... it takes no fool to realise that the computer recovered on its own, before me.

Bah...
(This should be the first and last time I do a 'normal' blog entry. -- Descrption of day)

A blog entry of a friend (a very 'cheem' guy at that) of mine, has this title on it. And it leads me to wonder, what exactly is the damned role of this blog?

As he had stated in his entry, blogs are the tools for the average student to pen down their musings, their rantings or perhaps just somewhere they give a summary of their day. He laughs at the fact that he can immediately guess the nationality of particular blogs when he figures out the structure of the entry, and its 'language'.

Technically speaking, no one cares about the common or uncommon musings of an average teenager. And I feel no need to elaborate on that statement. Its there, its true. Rants to my friend are conisdered both amusing and agonizing. And then theres the barrage of words that I won't spent my time dwelling in the depths of m-w.com to be enlightened by.

Online diary. Online journal. Put all the common rationales behind you and think of the old traditional days when journals were sacred. When writings were kept up and locked. Thoughts that were made, verses that were said, sometimes went down with the person. He (Or She; as I think the 'she's here are prominent) would burn it before death. Blogspot is a genius really.

But really... Whats with my blog? Am I really like the rest of the bloggers out there, having nothing better to do and just make up this crap for sian-ness ?

Yes, I do go zoneseek and do my little creations from time to time... but seriously. What do I know? I am only fifteen afterall. I might (I still doubt this, even now) be mature for my age, but still, So what ? I don't think this maturity of mine deserves any attention anyway. Everyone matures at different levels and if you take it in consideration of RPGish attributes; its only probaly a matter of time when they level up to each singular one.

Yes. This is nothing.

Run.

"I heard of the peasants, the workers at toil.
I heard of the riflemen, swifty and bold.
I heard of the footmen, the bravery they uphold;
and I heard of Prince Arthas, the son of the throne.

How worthy the holder? How strong is the lad?
Is he all bravery, with the code of the his pad?
This son of Terenas, with pure blood of king;
his training by Bronzebeard, the hammer he brings.

Uther endured him, his headstrong requests.
Jaina Proudmoore had left him, towards Lordaeron's unrest.
His father was falling, the lineage in contest.
Arthas decided not to give a damn to the test.

The rain is now falling, the wind screams with shame.
Mankind is laughing, ignorant to its blame.

I heard of the crying. I heard its pain.
Its pressure, and worry. Its hatered and tain.
I call out to nothing. Only us, to be blamed.
Oh wretched immortality, the damned Cult of the damn.
If not for its patience... I would have still seen my king to be sane.

Arthas is rushing; fresh blood a common name.
The blade he is wielding,

Is cold to its frame."

--- A poem for a Peasant whom had eaten the grains that had the plague which Kel'Thuzad had put in. Just at the mission when Arthas was fustrated with the undead for doing such and decided to purge that village before his people were turned into the undead. (Note: I forgotten if he already had obtained the frostborne. Well.... has been a long time since I played Warcraft)

"All of my life I have lived by a code and the code is simple: honor the gods, love your woman and defend your country. Troy is mother to us all. Fight for her! " -- Hector, Troy

"Myrmidons! My brothers of the sword! I would rather fight beside you than any army of thousands! Let no man forget how menacing we are, we are lions! Do you know what's waiting beyond that beach? Immortality! Take it! It's yours!" -- Achilles, Troy

"I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of Men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of wolves and shattered shields when the Age of Men comes crashing down, but it is not this day! This day we fight!”
-- Aragon, LOTR: Return of the King

"The men will have to rest with my word; but you captain, can be rest assured. Imdahl will be ours before winter." -- Hosse, Sunset over Imdahl

"Singapore like that one lar. Just go up and 'choing', blur blur, never mind. In the end, a way will be paved." -- Guy at coffeeshop (to son)

I wonder. If the battles have all ended. If the wars have all been fought.
And if they had lost...

How many will remember and respect?

The point of human survival.

The meaning of existence.

Stuff like this, invariably will connect to the common question "Where do we go after we die." Being a true believer, I know. (Yes I do!) But satisfaction to a knowledge of "knowing" always get no where with creatures like men. The fun of arguments brings nothing to rest, until logic acts as the final jury. Still, splinter groups will always be happy to rise. Control-freaks realise their gift and theories that I label 'logical bullshit' will surface. Lets look at these fascinating ideas... (Note, that humans, being intricate creatures, would have varations to the ideas of the aftermath)

The Life Cycle
The deal that life is one constant pattern that people keep going through. We keep getting reborn in view of our 'karma' that we have built up in the life we had completed. That's how stuff like retribution and things of such happen. You born poor? Bad karma. You born a monkey? Bad karma. Your rich and lead a carefree life? Good karma. And so on. Its supposedly that when you attain enlightenment, you will stop being reborn and reside in a place where all the enlightened ones are. Life is interdependent on karma and we should concentrate on doing good deeds in our life so we can be reborn as a one of reasonable happy-right.

The Multiverse
This one is in relation with quantum theory; a physicist known as Hugh Everett had this idea that the universe that we see is just one of the infinite, parallel universes in this world. Yeah, movies have comercialised these ideas. "The One" comes to mind (Argh.) I think "Timeline" does quite a good job in handling the concept, the novel was good, I'm not sure of the movie. So, with these many universes, every option ones makes would equal to the opening of a new universe. There would be a universe where Hitler won the war, a universe where Linx was created before Windows, a universe where people didn't think of eating cows yet. (Not so sure bout the last one, but yeah.) Then, theres this idea of 'many alternate selves' one has across all parallax universe. They interdepent on each other by a law of the multiverse (sorta like gravity) and thereby existance would be rallied as such. Death is not really discussed on this line, but I do believe there are beliefs of you never dying literally because of the many alternate selves. (Think that there is no time, time don't pass, you pass.)

Heaven and Hell
The baisc idea is: Good goes to heaven, Bad gets banished in hell. Chinese drama serials involve this concept rather constantly. Legend of the Eight Immortals etc. That aside, this one has been thought through rather often. Its varations and the mechanisms behind each set of 'heaven' and 'hell' have differences and similarites. And many faiths believe in this concept. 'Paradise', 'Eighteen Levels of Hell', 'Jade Emperor Palace' etc. etc. Which brings me to the sub-topic of---
Pugatory -- There are some beliefs that promote a place to exist in before entering heaven. I had attened some meeting or talk before that had said that in this place, one would experiece constant hunger and thirst. After experiencing 'enough', as defined by the amount of sin he had commited and the good works he had done, compromsied, then he would enter heaven.

Predetermination
Either a)We had chose what we were going to be, what we were going to do, who we were going to meet etc. Even who our parents would be, who our partners would be and when we would die. b) All is already fated. It is already set what will happen to us and where we will be going. In both cases, they draft out a concept of a 'destnity'. It is interesting to note that many believe in the life cycle and predetermination at the same time. This means they're aware that there is some sort of higher being up there that would define such "laws'' or perhaps they assume its a law of life, a constant reality to face.

Coincedence and Nothingness
Life is just one big coincedence, the big bang that formed a earth that gave such exact requirements for human life had also spawned intricately designed beings, moudled nicely without many defects. The coincedence was so powerful that it even spawn wildlife and aquatic life that so happened to be able to ajust to sitauions. No wait, they didn't. They EVOLVED into the environment. Perhaps the environment evolved to suit them as well, till everyone is one big happy family. Then, when they die, they just go back to nature, best to be done with through decompostion. That's right, return what nature gave you.

Ignorance
Sadly, this is a theory that many buy. Many believe in this because its probaly the easiest way out and there's nothing involved for one to believe in. Thats very true, everyone cares more about life and living. They're giving more damn to the eighty plus years they have on earth than the enternity they could be having.

Logic. Reason. Purpose. Pattern. We try our best to see these things and through it, try to assume views that are correct, to think of ways that give us a leeyway for acceptance.

And that, is one of the greatest joys of human life and yet at the same time, the greatest weakeness to him.

And that is... Sad.

Lets see this in a different light.
I'm sure the stereotype vanity doesn't exists that much now. Now, people don't want to appear self-concious for the sole reason that they are self-concious. I.e. They do not want to have an image that they are vain.

Vainty however, still transcends plenty of things. The way it is expressed may be different nowadays, but it still is around. I think people are aware that it is. Its just another one of those things no one goes around talking about, unless reverse psychology kicks in, i.e. "Yeah guys, I'm one egocentric bastard!". But now, among people that are distant to you or people that you don't mantain a level of frankness with, vanity becomes a mind game.

A case of vanity, can be seen from blogs and ''author's notes'' of stories. Devices that allow a platform to show off your profile, to talk all about yourself and rant contiously on what you did, why you did it, whats gonna happen etc. Both cases demostrate a desire for attention; maybe not so drastic; perhaps not so obvious to see (For both parties).

Perhaps thats what friends and relationships really are for. To feed on attention one needs, of course, there is the listener, but the society is always interdependent anyway.

Vanity may also exist for a want to impress. So one can gain the praise and recognition that makes them feel good, e.g. Affirmations from others that they did well. Celebrations are always done with friends anyway. Very crudely, the lifeblood for our ego.

I'm sure everyone is vain in some stage of their life. Vainty not only applies to looks anyway, it does root from other things.

Humans were creatures that desire satisfaction anyway, so vanity is simply inclusive in the average human instinct.

Most probaly, this simple mind game of vanity will be played continously over the years, be overlooked or unnoticed, and transcend through the sands of time.

I happen to attend an enriching talk on the topic, "Why do some Christians call other groups cults?". A pretty normal title, nothing abstract. But the topic is interesting and I decided to do a summary of it based on the notes I've taken. I never mentioned much names in my blog, but this time I think its necessary to say that all credit of this goes to Rev Adrian Van Leen from CCGM in Australia. I just paraphrased. Lots of stuff and examples not mentioned in this summary, but I'm not exactly a pro at taking notes anyway. And it was a 2 hour + talk.
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Elements of the Common Religions
Besides a name, any religion has to have Leaders. They also have some sort of higher being, like a God. There will be followers who go to a place of worship and follow a set of beliefs and values that the religion respects. These beilefs are usually found in a sort of Sacred Book.

Example (A made-up Religion)
_Tranquility
They have elders who study the deep teachings of the Guru, the Tranquil. They follow a set of beliefs which state that all religions are the same. This is recognised through the carrying of their scared object, the Prism. They believe that the way of the Tranquil is the only true path where one can gain the sense of peace and a new awareness; when light enters the prism, the different colours would be refracted away from it at different speeds. They believe that each colour represents a single religion and only by joing Tranquility, the main source of light, one can be complete. They meet every saturday at Serenity Palaces where they discuss the teachings contained in the "Way of the Tranquil". The book consists of information from all religions and describes the correct path to take in order to find the inner peace in one.
Note: This was made up by a group of students in reply to the Rev.'s request to create a religion.

Style of Cults
The new age kind of stuff is the most appealing thing now in our age. People sometime don't want to think and root off others beliefs.

Case Studys:--

'Orange' People

Followers who believe and trust in this single 'Guru'. At the start, these people listen to talks by him. Later on, they are changed to become strong devotist. The process is as followed...

Stage One: The Enterance
People who come to see the guru talk have to be clean and have no BO nor use perfumed shampoo. (Reason:Guru Allergic)They are also not supposed to carry any items that allows them to take down notes nor record the teachings of the guru. Many were refused for entry, leaving only the rest to feel special to stay.

Stage Two: The Talks
The guru's speeches would be filled with dirty jokes and be littered with sayings from different religious teachers, mixing everything up. People would be slightly distracted through these things and later on just drift into believing what the Guru says. Psychological manipulation is used strongly here, will be talked about futher later.

It finally gets to a stage where the guru never says anything and just says that he w0uld connect with the people by heart. After silence for one and a half hour, the guru leaves and everyone still cheers as usual. Kissing the ground he had placed his feet on.

'Christian' Meditation

When certain christians say they want to find a certain meditation that is more christian as most mediations are based off hinduism. A certain church teacher had travelled to india and recieved teachings from a hindu guru. He brought by the teachings to his church group. It might not be intentional, as in the leader may have been decieved and spread his own deception to his students. The disturbing part of the mediation is that in the church, among christians, the group mediates by chanting phrases that they themselves do not know the meaning of. One vaguely translate to 'I am of that' while the other is stating that there is a single God of a certain name. Somewhere along those lines...

Jim Jones

Started with a church that had all classes of people in it. As previous churches all had people of equal status together, his was the first that allowed such a teaching. Many guys thought he was great as at first he was teaching about Jesus and on the bible. However, very gradually, he moved his teachings into focusing on he himself. On one occasion, he tossed the bible on the ground and said that "You don't need this! You have me!" or something like that. And people believed. He even used psychological manipulation to poison 913 people.

Bible Misinterpretation
Many cults spark off from misinterpreting the bible. The bible should be read in context and not only through quotes. As it was only much later when it was given chapters and verse numbers, quoting from the bible without the whole context might distort its meaning. Take 1
Corinthians 13, the love chapter. Though it was quoted in many weddings, its intentions may be different from what Paul had in mind when he wrote it. I.e. Don't abuse the scripture. Many have done so, and used the bible to say what they want to say.

Miracles and Psychological Manipulation
Even some christians tend to cheat to get that 'people power'. There was this guy who said the lord told him things and openly talked about some random guy in the crowd, citing his injures and stuff of such. This was actually from an audio earpiece which transmited information that his wife recited to him from the back through cards people filled in before they entered.

There are also political manipulation involved. You know, the sort of stuff like when a single guy in the room claps, everyone else starts clapping. There is an incident when the speaker asks everyone in the room to close their eyes. A rebel did not. He asked them to raise their hands at to answer 'yes' to his question of 'how many of you have accepted christ as your saviour'. The rebel looked around to see the number of hands at a specific location the speaker said 'thank you' to, did not correspond to the number of thank yous he said. I.e. he spoke more 'thank yous'.

Then, there is the matter when songs are sang again and again in churches. With the church leader saying that 'the grace of the holy spirit is washing over us'. At some songs, members 'raise their holy hands' to sing and at other songs they do not, some what like their programmed not to. Songs are repeated say 10 over times, chrous especially. A rebel did not raise his hands at a worship session, after awhile the worship leader said, "I think someone here is trying to disrupt the presence of the holy spirit and should go home." She was in eye lock with that rebel. The rebel stayed to the end. The point is that, christianity is not one big mind game. Places with large yellings, heavy cheering even after a long while, makes no sense if we don't see the point with it. As we must love Jesus with all our heart, all our mind and all our soul; we still have to love him with our mind. I.e. conciously, we need to be thinking. Singing of a song with constant repetation may equal to just following the lyrics and not knowing and respecting the meanings.

But, that rebel, being a christian, believed in mircales. Sometimes, little things like someone believing after a certain something happens; is in itself a miracle as well.

--Psychological Manipulative Methods

The reinforcement question
Ideas resaid from the questions asked. I.e. Ask a married man 'Have you stopped beating your wife'. This question traps people and has them state the answer that the cult desires.

Constant Repetition, Frequent Influence
How did Jim Jones poison that lot of people? Slow, steady procedures. He ran a 'test of faith by drinking poison' program a few times without the use of real poison (Yes! God is with me, I will not be posioned when I believe in Jim!) After a few times, people believe. The pressure of the crowd doing it is also a factor.

Acception then Rejection, Correction then Gradual Acception
Very basically.... 1) You are a great guy! 2) Your a sinner! A rotten, despised sinner 3) But if you listen to me, you can be purified. 4) Yes, see! Now you are great.
But I think you get the idea...

Crowd Humiliation
Someone disagrees? Take him to the front and spank him infront of everyone. The followers support it. The disgraced victim would think twice and everyone would not dare rebel.

The Lowdown
Defination of a Cult: Distorts message of truth in Jesus; But, not only dependent on basis of theology. Sociology and its Psychology as well. One should be able to question it and be allowed to think independently in the cult, not to be transformed into the 'clone' of everyone else . Note that sometimes leaders may answer questions but might avoid the actual answering by draggin the answer.

To protect oneself from cults, the values below should be followed--

THINK -- think about the matter
QUESTION -- Ask questions when unsure
BIBLE -- Do constant reading of your bible, check the realibility of stuff through scripture
JESUS -- Focus on Jesus

Note that Theology is linked strongly to God, but to know God, we should know Jesus.

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There are still stuff and bases uncovered. But this is mostly what my notes had covered.

I give liberty for anyone to use and distribute this particular entry of my blog. Or the parts without my 'author's notes' anyway. Please credit it to Rev Adrian Van Leen, its okay if you don't want to talk about Zoneseekers.

What is it really?

An emotion? Or an alarm?

Or something more?

There are many different levels of fear and many ways of looking at it. The stereotype optimist sees it as a barrier that one has to overcome and label as a signal. The rest of the people see it as a heavy threat. Fear exists in many areas of life, even the unthinkable situations have its presence.

Such circumstances of this cloud of fear has regined so majesticallly in human society that it is now not important anymore. Fear has been strongly commercialsed, painfully negoiated with and now... Its distorted. Like almost everything else in the world anyway, so that can be forgiven.

But the element of fear does not only partake to singular matters or even matters at all. It is not only that nagging feeling that puts you away from doing things nor that little voice that paralyzes you from commiting actions.

Fear can transcend that, and a lot more. Sometimes, we fear without knowing we fear. When our fear is obvious, the results are painful. But when our fear is illusionary, the process is torture.

Otherwise, why hold so much respect to 'fear' ? Its not as simple as 'scared' and 'afraid'. It is much more.

More to the extent that words cannot translate.

And that is something I fear.

Is really never original.

Thats what I hate about it.

The stuff that has been done would be modified or done in some different fashion, ideas would be copied and manipulated after several run throughs.

Let the idea be x.
When f (x)= variable, where f is a function denoted by no restrained variety.

Take this and manipulate it with using as many functions as you can within the topic range. See the limited possiblites?

And to make things worse, each brainchild destorys the percentile creativity that would be resulted from in the creations. Many people now only say "I was inspired by..." and not "I created this." Note the fullstop. Cliches are grown, when something 'cool' is done like a nice twist in the story or a good melodramatic ending to a well thought out character, the thing soon dies off. Next time it happens... people will see it coming or the character will be called a stereotype or something that is superficial. People would predict twists and expect character changes.

Yeah, I know I'm complaining on nothing really. But its just another something I hate.

It distorts the beauty of one's creations and yet has to exist in order to allow the respect and emulation to flow by in the first place.

Kinda like... life.

Bah. No difference. I hate them both.

I wanted to start a post at Implorations and go do some general changes for the blogs (Including deleting or replacing Linesion).

But Blogger seems to be dying on me severely.... lag + Long waiting times, this cliched combination finally got me pissed off.

The normal attention span of an internet user has a limit anyway.

All internet users have an in-built capacity for how long they can wait and how much attention they are willing to release to various internet aspects. Say,

Literatures
Essays written by pple like blog entries and fanficiton. Some peeps would get annoyed by the length and turn away immediately while some would engage themselves enthusitcally into the reading of everything. Then again, it does depend on the content. Whether is it the mudane topics of the usual blog or another essay discussing the meaning of life; the reader would only be interested if he is attracted.

Page Loading Time
Wait. Look around. Glance at the bottom bar in the bottom-right coner of Internet Explorer. Open another page to do a surf elsewhere first. Check again. Stop the page and refresh. Everyone can mantain this stance with their own personal time. In the end though, most just slam onto the "back" button, ignorning the laughter of the page at your patience.

Game Loading Time
No alternative but to wait. In some games I played, impatient dudes spam comments to hurry a
"lagger" so the game would load slower. I think they understand the irony.

Lag
The inspiration of the cool effects for The Matrix. The retardation of an effect that sometimes pisses guys off and sometimes make guys lucky. Lag for Counter Strike and you can escape a head shot, when you unlag, you'll do that head shot. Laggy programs are the thing that pisses me off quite a lot. Its feeling like your going to complete an action but then when you complete it, it doesnt happen and sometimes does after a minute or so. Makes me wish for a "Stop" button on all laggy programs, so I can stop the action and choose another option.

Downloading time
I know people who get pissed off if their file doesn't get downloaded in below 1 minute. Really... I don't think my com could spoil me to that stage.

Oh well. Later then.

Ego is it?

A nice attribute that humans possess. This want to impress, be it sub-conciously, semi-conciously or conciously; has not been defined to a definate matter. In terms of morality, it could be considered sinful to have a large ego or to even have ego at all. In lighter perspectives, acceptance could give ego a friendlier touch, blaming it to be implored soley through human nature.

Ego is the thing that has sparked up many negetive emotions. Say anger; the tension that rises by a provoke could shatter the pride of the victim, throwing him into total exposure to embarrasement and giving him a shaky wield onto rage. Or Jealousy, the logical emotion to be aroused from the burst of an ego through the disatisfaction of others. Then, there is sadness. The breaking of glass and silent sobbing before the retreat in hope of a shelther to comfort. There are the milder ones like shock and surprise, amusement and prehaps (this time its actually good...) ignorance.

Ego is a dangerous thing. It has sparked wars and probaly killed people. Most emotional tourture narrow in onto the ego to attack it. From young, bullies have use wepons of mass destruction such as "moron" and "idiot" to do harm to the ego. Western psychology beliefs that include building a proper self-esteem and not demoralise a person too much for his goodwill's sake.

Anyway, I don't think it makes sense to do a very deep blog entry on ego. This topic has been discussed in many ways and been talked of a lot. But since its on the large scale, I should have it in my blog too.

To conclude, Bush won the elections.

*Shakes Head*

I went through blogs that... 1) Concerned Studies, 2) Concerned BGR Problems, 3) Gave heavy thoughts on life itself, 4) Discussed global issues, 5) Circle around God.

The various perspectives to life always seem to lock me in fustration. I can't explain why. I just know. Its like some sort of awareness. Bah...

I spent sometime upgrading the blog. The new logo was created out of random pictures. I was just messing around really... The fuzzy, shattered effect seemed relatively nice so I thought one decoration to this portal would not do much harm... It sorta brightens up the atmosphere even.

I will try to start posting in the new blogs. Linesion will most probaly be destroyed... So visit the space if you don't feel like missing it too much...

I'll try.

The winds blow strongly in the storm,
lauging voices fill the norm.

The land has nothing one must seek,
the bridge of damnation is reached in peek.

Silent ponder kills the saunter,
forging fire out of blunder.

People existing out of reason,
forgotten notions considered treason.

Chronicles of constants mounted on price,
stakes of goodwill elasted on might.

The lands are taunting, in might it falters.
Yet no one has the blade.

--- I still know everything fustrates. Every single matter is overlooked by the other kin of mine, my human being. And I. I just transcend through it. Fed up.

Bah.

On the side note, my research on dreams yesterday mounted to nothing. I only got one reasonable fact that parallaes itself to my desired outsource: --
"Dreams are indispensable. A lack of dream activity can mean protein deficiency or a personality disorder"

And I laughed.

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