I hate being sick. Period.
The feeling that you’re weak, powerless, having this irritating source of energy that is being drawn from you all the time… Its limitless, the kind of pain you can feel. Physical pain, I mean. The boundless draw back of energy removed of me has no pleasure of giving me enough thoughts to review the emotional side of things. Although it is true/cliche that the body is always connected to the mind.
Yet the pain…
Yeah… Pain.
There are so many different kinds I can feel, I suppose everyone has been through it; I do wonder if they take notice.
Lets see now, there’s the sort of pain that comes from headaches, yeah. A complete torture as you try all means to massage your temples, cursing the pain to be removed as you try lying back on the bed, chanting perhaps, a prayer. To cut down on the junk, its basically pain in the head.
Then there’s the pain you feel from a sore throat. Even from here, I can branch out to several more sources. The flam in your throat, you swallow it, feeling its so damned hard to drink water as your throat is simply yelling “Pain!” The feeling is complete soreness. It is connected to you trying to blow your nose as you get the flam out through it, or through your mouth as you try to cough it out.
One of the pains I hate to feel most (actually, I hate them all) is feeling nauseous. Yeah, the damned feeling you try to avoid, at least one will feel better when he vomits. Yet, the feeling of nauseous-ity with you trying your damned best to vomit out all the stuff so you can stop feeling as if in a combination of fear and reluctance. This is especially true if you’re in a car or someplace where you can’t barf. Just the thought of you not being able to barf out, therefore you resist the desire to barf. Yet the feeling of nauseous-ity builds up in you, before you know it.
The feeling of being weak sucks too. No energy to do anything, probably just sleeping a day of your life away, when you wake up, having the sort of feeling that it’s hard to get up and do work…
Ah… crap, enough about pains.

Black eyes peace just came on the radio. 98.7… wanted to hear Power 98 but there seemed to be something wrong with the radio link. Well, its cool now hearing “Where is the Love”, ironical as well too… Should that sum up my emotional-talk today, as I don’t feel like mentioning? Heh…

Good night world…

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